This website is about my book mainly, but also about my experience of mental institution, that's why I keep my blog with me to show my emotions out to the world. Please be patient with me, it's my first blog for a long time and I have not much chances to write as I am supervised and there are restrictions for internet use. I feel like I break the rules each time I am writing here. This is my world My inner world of seclusion and isolation far from home and from friends. I am Polish girl on English land locked up and with distant future somehwere in a 'Future'. I strongly believe that I will get out of the System someday, but for now it is impossible, I am dry and lack of positive attitude for another day. Another day which is the same as previous one. All days the same. I gasp for a joint. Some relaxation, wine in a park with friends. So far hard life. Walls and electric locks and Rules. Rules are to break them innit? I am always punished for breaking them, I am a rule breaker, naughty and inappropriate. I hate this place so much.